It's recruitment season again, how I wish I could fit in
And how I wish I felt comfortable, be myself in my own skin
Look around at all these perfect chalices filled to the brim
I'm just untempered glass, they're made of porcelain
Say "I'm fine", no, I didn't lose my mind
I'm a narcissist who's insecure all the time
Skip my classes, then I wonder, why I'm so behind?
Somehow, I always feel alone and undefined
I guess wisdom comes with age
but my time has been a waste
'Cause I'm nevеr good enough to feel like I'm okay
I ask my older friеnds
how they feel about the world being so gray
How can they say that?
Feels like I won't ever have what it takes
What it takes, what it takes
Can I be honest? I don't really know
what's going on right now
Did I ever feel like I belong?
I'm a little fish in a very big pond
and everybody else is in control
I don't know what's going on
Say "I'm fine", no, I didn't lose my mind
I'm a narcissist who's insecure all the time
Skip my classes, then I wonder, why I'm so behind?
Somehow, I always feel alone and undefined
I guess wisdom comes with age
but my time has been a waste
'Cause I'm never good enough to feel like I'm okay
I ask my older friends
how they feel about the world being so gray
How can they say that?
Feels like I won't ever have what it takes
What it takes, what it takes
Back in high school I thought I'd be smarter
prettier in college
Maybe I was a better swimmer when the pond was smallest
It's recruitment season again, they are asking for my advice
Thought I'd be put together when I set into the spotlight
Hate being admired when I'm really not a [?]
And time hasn't expired, I just grew too fast
And they know that I know that I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all
I guess wisdom comes with age, but my time has been a waste
'Cause I'm never good enough to feel like I'm okay
I ask my older friends
how they feel about the world being so gray
How can they say that?
Feels like I won't ever have what it takes
I'll never have what it takes
Will I ever feel okay?
Will I ever have what it takes?