It could make me wanna sit down and cry,
everything we´ll ever be has to die,
everything we ever were is dead,
I cannot believe what I´ve had.
It could make me wanna turn around,
I don´t wanna be lost and not found,
everything that I lose,
it just turns me upside down.
Whatever I did on the way
to becoming myself, here, today,
all the skins that I shed like a snake
have gone astray.
I could not be me, I could not feel me,
´cause I realize
I can´t be just what I used to be.
If I could only bring it back forever,
if I could only bring it back forever...
if I could only bring me back
forever... forever !
You don´t know just what it means to me,
I could never go back to be the way
I used to be - believe me - deep inside
I think it´s killing me
I could live I could die,
I could pray
I could try to be me,
but i can´t be me !
I remember me as a child,
now my phantasies running wild,
like a smell or a taste from the past,
this reminds me of me.
Everything that I used to do,
I was so small, everything was new,
I never knew, what I´d grow up into.
I remember the fear and the pain,
I remember the joy just the same,
I remember myself like a friend from days gone by.
I could not be me,
I could not feel me,
´cause I realize
I can´t be just what I used to be.
If I could only bring it back forever...
if I could only bring it back forever...
if I could only bring me back forever...
forever !
I tried and tried to ease the pain,
but now I´m gone and
I cannot come home again.
Where´s the little boy, that I used to be,
of everything that I´ve lost
I never wanted to lose me,
use me up like a battery-pack.
I never wanted to leave,
but now I can´t come back,
I never felt it before,
but I feel it here today,
I wanna make it stay...
but the memories fade away !